She’s not my little baby anymore … May 29, 2009

So my little coconut turned 1 on May 19th. Who knew it would be such an emotional day for her mommy? It was the most bittersweet day of my entire existence. I am so happy and proud of all the accomplishments she has made over the past year. She is walking, talking, cutting teeth, signing, and becoming more and more independent everyday. However, not a day goes by that I don’t think ‘I’m losing my little girl’. Now, I know there are a lot of moms of much older daughters out there who are thinking ‘Oh just you wait’, but I don’t even want to think about how sad I will be on her first day of school, her graduation, her wedding day!

 

Okay, okay, I’m getting ahead of myself. I am trying to embrace every moment. Even when shes a fuss-pants, I try and enjoy the moment. I tell her how proud I am of her daily. I want her to grow up and take pride in her accomplishments and I think praise is the best way to get her there. That’s how I live my life. Not that I want to be a proud person, but I want my family to be proud of me and the things I do for our little unit.

 

Man, 1st birthdays are deep!

 

So what, shes not an infant. That just means she will slowly start to take charge of her life. Shes feeding herself, that’s a start. She will even walk to the cupboard and pull out her crackers. Then she walks over to her high chair all the while saying ‘Cra-ca, Cra-ca. Cra-ca’. I love knowing what she wants. I’m not saying that alwaysknow what she wants (like that will ever happen), but I do like that we are finally getting some direction. On the other hand, I still love her little cuddles. She has even fallen asleep in my arms a few times in the last month (probablyhad a lot to do with her having the flu). Ill hold on to the ‘baby-ness’ for as long as I can, all the while embracing the little lady she is growing into. But in the end it doesnt matter how old she is or how independent she has become, she will always be my baby.

Mommy sucks at blogging. May 17, 2009

As it turns out, it has been over a month since the last time I blogged. Oops.

I think this is a good time to introduce myself and my little family. My name is Amie, and I’m 23. I have been married for 2.5 years to my high school sweetheart Tony. We have a beautiful baby girl, Olivia, who will be 1 in only a few days. 

I am a stay-at-home-mom (SAHM) and I moonlight at a fast food joint a few hours a week. My husband is a Chartered Accountant for a very large firm, but he is in a small office.

We purchased our first home this January and are looking forward to playing in our yard, and barbecuing up a storm this summer. I’m also working on my garden, scouting patio furniture, and dreaming other house related dreams.

We (read I) would like 3 more children, although I have heard DH (dear husband) say on more than one occasion that he would like 2 more (I’m getting there!).

I guess that is all for now. I’m sure I will be back at some point to pour my heart out about my mixed feelings surrounding my DD’s (dear daughter) big milestone coming up. It will be the most bittersweet moment of my life!

Be Grateful April 21, 2009

I stumbled upon another wordpress blog today. It belongs to a mother of 5 who lost her husband in a car accident in the fall of ‘07. I felt compelled to read it from start to finish. I cried more than Ive cried in a very long time. Partly because I was sad for her loss and partly because I was grateful for what I do have.

I don’t know what I would do if I were to lose my husband. We have been together for 9 years this October and married for 3 this September. We have so many dreams for the future. I made him promise not to leave me. I realize that I have no control over the future, just the present. So, I am grateful. Grateful for our health and happiness and where we are in our lives. I no longer want to rush everything. I am learning to be happy in the ‘now’. Its not always that easy for me, but I do like a challenge.

Ive gone through a ‘cleanse’ in the past few weeks. Ive purged all negativity from my life and am working on cultivating the positive. I have so much to be happy about and its time I start embracing it.

Ive decided to include 3 things I am currently grateful for in each post.

1) My husband. This past weekend validated the actual hard work I do when I’m home alone with Olivia for 98% of her waking hours (and about 80% of her sleeping hours as well). There is no greater gift.

2) My daughter. For all the happy, laughing, and even the challenging times. She is shaping the person I am evolving into, as I am trying to mold her into a beautiful human being, especially on the inside.

3) My ’new’ friends. Who knew you could form such a tight bond in such a short period of time?

Good Morning Boys and Girls April 12, 2009

Well, after all this time, I’ve finally decided to take the plunge into blogging. I was always worried that I would start blogging, and then get bored, and then abandon it. Actually, come to think of it, I probably do have an abandoned blog some where. Anyway, I think I should start off with a purpose. Right? So what do I want to accomplish with this blog? Mostly, I would like to have a place to collect all of my positive experiences. No negativity here. I want to use this blog as a funnel for all the good things that happen everyday. Well maybe everyday is a little too ambitious, but it is a goal!

I think that is a good start. I will leave it at that. Post #2 will hopefully have a bit of an introduction to my little family and I. There, now I have both a short-term goal, as well as a long-term goal for this blog. It can’t be that hard, can it?